ugh.

So i haven't written in a long while. I used to enjoy writing. Now it's kind of a trigger for my spiral downward. Im just tired of it all. i want to just stop and sleep for a long time. at least a day or so. Im mostly tired. i want to do so much...and yet i have worked so hard for this and it might get pulled from under me. I hate that i have the spot but not the education. how is that possible? oh bc GW is so hoity toity that they make their own rules. im angry, tired, stressed, and pissed. don't stand in my way people.