Time to bring in the Meds

it sucks that it had to come to that. But i cant do it any more just by myself. I cant run myself into the ground to keep other things off of my mind. I need the help. Normal outlets that worked before have little or no effect on me. That's what's upsetting. Or maybe i worked myself up really good. Maybe i have gotten into a path that is destructive to my health. I probably should take a class on how to relax. 

I think i am going to have to do some pleading with strangers. To have faith and let me in. Faith that i can do the job that another department thought that i was qualified that i could complete at their school. Doesn't that count for something? What does a standardized test evaluate? It doesn't measure anything i have learned in the classroom in any upper level classes that i have taken. it is completely un-useful to anyone.

ugh.

So i haven't written in a long while. I used to enjoy writing. Now it's kind of a trigger for my spiral downward. Im just tired of it all. i want to just stop and sleep for a long time. at least a day or so. Im mostly tired. i want to do so much...and yet i have worked so hard for this and it might get pulled from under me. I hate that i have the spot but not the education. how is that possible? oh bc GW is so hoity toity that they make their own rules. im angry, tired, stressed, and pissed. don't stand in my way people.

at the tower...

so i thought it would be different right now. this whole semester. i thought it would be a breeze. i wouldn't have any major problems... boy was i wrong and its only been 5 weeks. i will take the summer back and my main worry was toggling between the cardinals and field hockey. ah those were the days. i never thought i would have said that...

the library will soon be my second home. i have to start sleeping more. i need to start writing lots of papers... damn writing major and minor. (and internship for that matter).

i think my parents are serious about having my grad party at the tower... oh who to invite.

what to do.

back on fb...its not as exciting as it used to be. I guess I'm weird. 

So I'm wondering about the 500 point drop by the Dow today. I really didn't hear much about it on the news...granted I'm watching baseball but still. BBC is calling it Meltdown Monday...and it could have been worse is what it reports. I don't have much money but i like the little amount that i do have, ya know?

He talked to me on Sunday...but it was light and one-dimensional. i guess i fucked up another good guy friendship again. 

Field hockey WON!!

I want to share that FIELD HOCKEY WON 8-0 against Lindenwood tonight. And they played it on TV!!!

We also have the best athletic team record so far this season!!!

I signed up for the GRE

I now have to take the GRE at 9 am on Oct. 17. Please keep me in your positive thoughts section of your brain on this date. I am gonna need any help i can get. Also if you see me later in the day, and Im a zombie...you know why! lol. 

Now i have to actually start studying. LOL.

for the time being i don't have a fb account. one less distraction. I have a feeling due to the recent events on saturday, i am gonna throw myself into work and kinda the sorority. leave no time to dwell on him. Im sad that it came to this. I would just like an answer. Not avoidance. That probably hurts worse. 

Tonight is a pretty night to take a walk... to bad i have no one to do that with. and i actually have time to do it. 

getting something off my chest

so i don't really know what i should do... about really anything. a particular boy, life after school, life in the present... anything.

i had convinced myself i was just gonna be friends with this boy... now he just confuses me. it seems every time that i talk to him i find something else that upsets me about what he does or says. I'm not sure but i doubt that is a good thing. I know i am not perfect either, far from it, but be honest or at least stick to what you say. But one good part about our weird ass friendship was that only one part of my world knew who he was and now my worlds are mixing. I have tried very hard to keep them all separate... and i don't know if i like it. I have worked pretty damn hard to keep it all juggled correctly... and balls are falling. 

Just a little something.

It has been requested that since I haven't written on here for over a month, that i write at least something.

Something.

No, I kid. Its just been kicked into third gear on stuff needing to get done for school and dealing with sports info and the cards.

I got to use some of my very limited spanish knowledge today. I explained llamame was call me to someone higher than me in the office. I felt special...and odd. I haven't used that in a while.

drunk dial/text

All star game and home run derby have come and gone. Those were tiring but very cool to be a part of. I only saw the last two batters of the derby. and most of the game though i talked a lot to the media that needed baby-sitting.

Friday night was the most entertaining. I went to Trolleys with my brother and his friends and -ended up seeing two-No there. Two-No eventually ended up drunk calling me and texting me. it was pretty freaking hilarious. of all the drunk dials/text i have gotten i wasn't expecting him to do it. at least not that weekend. he kept me up until 2 or so. he just didn't get a hint. Talking to him was the funniest because he says two words before his friend took his phone from him. It was pretty funny because his friend kept asking me questions like if we were dating or anything...so he knows ... IDK what. he couldn't take a hint that i wanted to go to bed. LOL

Survived the trip to KC...smelled like smoke. Royals lost. Got a water bottle from UMKC Greek life. i found it humorous. i walked their pretty compact campus.

the scouts are chatting it up behind me. hehehe.

Yeah...ok...sure

I am a mono candidate. I should be anyways. Almost done with the guide. which is good so i can help with other stuff here when he leaves. only a few more days and i won't even be here to see him leave. crazy right? i will definitely have to pay my respects. sheesh he's not dead just retiring. 

I leave for KC tonight! i hope we have fun. way up in the nose bleeds. lets hope.

stop

Its wedding mania around here. Its not a bad thing. Honest. I am happy for them. 

I think i have relinquished the thought of TV guy. I am going to just stop. Sure i will be nice to him. I have to because of both of my jobs. flirting will stop outside of those areas.

semi run over.

and today i feel like crap. like i got ran over with a semi. and i have gotten stuff done. not what i absolutely needed to get done. (i blame the home stand.) so here i go to work on stuff again.

I need sleep. summer is supposed to be easier. now I'm wondering if i get a lighter load with classes going on. I doubt it. 

One friend got married and one is now engaged. And one to come in the next month. 33 days to be exact. i think...  weather sucks... muggy and a chance of rain. summer colds. 

I am going to KC Thursday-Saturday. gonna see a royals game, UMKC, the plaza, and my grandma. ooo maybe she will send some rice home with me!

epic.

I'm about to declare that I'm physically drained. it sucks. eight games is draining and all the crazy shit that has been happening. the rain to day was star wars epic. it should have had its own theme song. only a 22 minute delay. fun. i want to curl up in a ball and go back to bed. 

wow long time has gone by since i wrote on this. oopsy. it got real busy and hectic. Radio with his stones yet to pass...my arms feel like they are being pulled down like if they were taffy.

i miss my nose ring. i now have the money to get a tattoo too. i should ponder these things more when i have more energy to actually thoroughly think about it. 

sports TV guy has moved past my yellowed hair sister. he told me via text. interesting. 

First day of June

Ah, the first day of June. in 8 days i have to start my summer school internship journal. five days is my day birthday. i got Ralph three years ago on the sixth, but changed it to the third because it was 6.6.06. Yeah not good for that dog to have that in his favor.

i had fun last night. it was a total blast from the past. We attempted to play putt-putt golf at fun acre but the line was horrendous so we went to Andy's for dollar concretes and ran into a bunch of random people. then i was left there briefly for a potty run and i got bored and text sports TV guy. tho he didn't get back to me until later while we took a lap for good old times. it was fun to turn my brain off when no liquor was involved.

didn't get the field hockey guide done. eh, oh well. like the coach said it won't go to print until august. thats it for now, i guess.

small update

My coach is two hours behind me in another country. I just want this week to end. I want to sleep in. To 9 a.m. that's all i ask. Nap during some tennis or golf. laze around for once. 

I was going to type something really important here (Stop snickering.) but i can't remember it. You are just going to live in bated breath.

Oh small update: getting closer to the finishing. Still no word from the coach tho.

"Silly People"

ah, well yes. I am without a car. its been a week since the wreak. one of my bosses at Sports Info traced it all back to getting to walk on the grass. but then revenge must have been exacted today when they spent 5-6 hours fixing the infield that they forgot to tarp.

"silly people." direct quote from a text from Sara.

any way. I'm having hand cramps because i have been typing so much. I have to get most of the field hockey guide done by Friday and work on the baseball cards for Cardinals. The Cards started a 6-game home stand tonight. 

I survived the trip to Chicago. the gas prices are so much nicer than the $4.19 up there. 

A quick update

Oh so much has happened to me since wednesday. Actually everything seems to have started on wednesday. I got hit in the parking lot at the Cardinals by an actual employee. The car might be totalled even though it can still drive, i can't open the front passenger door. i left that for my dad to deal with. 

Yes, I am in Chicago right now. Well Northbrook, IL. for my cousin's wedding. It hasn't been so bad yet. Left really late Thursday got in really early Friday. got chocolate chip pancakes and some sleep. went to the rehearsal luncheon ate some seafood and kept it down so there is a small victory.

Talked to Sara most of the way to the hotel via text and Sports TV guy won News Hottie.  and then he asked about my old blond half at the cardinals. WTF? she has a boyfriend. Not cool my friend, not cool. well then while at the luncheon, he calls me. but doesn't answer a text that i sent him if he really meant to call me.

 but eh. im not in the state of missouri. that is a victory right there. thought it is nullified by the fact that we are traveling in a minivan with arkansas license plates. 

And deep breath...Im out.

I write from the press box at Hammons. I shit you not. the other team is taking BP and the hum of the kerosene cans that is heating up the food holders is so comforting...eye roll. Any way today is the last game of this short home stand. it was also team picture day with the team amidst a 10-game losing streak and with tomorrow being an off/travel day... i hope they relax and win one...finally.

Um and there's a train. Zim, in his mo-hawk glory, is doing stairs...eye roll. I half wonder if it is in solidarity with the Bears starting the Valley tourney in two days. If only the Bears would have swept UNI...but they still would have been second to WSU.

Sheesh i am a dork...about sports. I am sooo cool. Boy department is kinda lacking...I still haven't voted for a news-hottie ... LOL! I really don't do that kind of thing... but i do love listening to ...oh hey, i could do that right now...hehehe.

Bright spot of the day, wait for it, wait for it... I got to walk on the field. Of course, i was with mike but i was right behind the pitching mound. Mike was rambling...and i was in awe. THAT WAY SO FRICKEN AWESOME! like a good little JA i didn't walk on the grass until i was told i could. It was so soft between my toes...i slightly understand why the grounds guy doesn't like MSU on it unless necessary. I wouldn't either...that's what he gets paid to do, ya know. It is slightly ridiculous but damn...it was soft. Again i am a sports dork.

Summer... I stayed up til 1 reading a good book, (Sara, and it wasn't Nora Roberts!) It was awesome, i just have to remember that i need to take something so my feet won't hurt the next day...damn cement stairs.

WHew. that was a long post. It might be awhile til i write again. Gotta go to a wedding in Chicago over memorial weekend. Text if you are bored. I think i get to watch another cousin run in the Chiago Marathon...cool. I guess. I just want to sit in the Chicago Public Library off Michigan Avenue. I just want to sit still and do nothing, but read. They have these great big Lion statues guarding the building...when the Bears (football team) was doing well in the playoffs a few years ago they put helmets on the lions...It was funny looking. it was also so cold that winter the helmets cracked.

and deep breath....Im out.

End of a semester

Ah. Another year has come to an end. well semester. the year has really only just begun. (You can't hear it, but I just went into a horribly awesome rendition of Barry White.) 

Anyway, Sara does have every right to tease me. I think i would be sad if she didn't. And she is probably right again... (gag, i admitted two rights to her!) about needing a buddy. But as we were talking, I realized that i just don't have any time or money to be social. McDon kept saying as cute as i am...i am a dork. Yeah, I can see that. I really don't think of myself in a pretty girl way. I am just a hard-worker, that generally gets put to the side. So when i get attention from the opposite sex, i goes over my head. 

Ah, need to study for my last final. damn. This sucks. 

Gah!

I got a random text from TV sports guy. He wants me and my yellow-haired counter part at the Cardinals to email one of the local radio stations for news hottie. eye roll. I thought it was funny that he would text me to ask that. It would be even funnier to send an email for big rob and make him think it was for little rob. I'm evil, i know. I am kinda unsure if i really want him to have my number. But can't go in time to change that... so eh. Oh well i guess. 

Finals week and packing to move back to my parents house sucks. I have two finals tomorrow and one Thursday. I am pre writing my 8:45 final, need to look over and review editing photos for my 11 final. And then Thursday's final i need to do well on so i can get a decent grade in the class. I need to do well on it. Its one of the final requirements to graduate. Along with my internship....gah. I don't want to even think about that right now. Home stand starts Friday. at least its a short one. Though there will be a long ass one in June. Fun. 

Oh Two-No Boy is staying in town this summer. I honestly doubt i will see him. In my mind i had put ended that friendship. Weird I know. But i had rationalized it to be like any college friendship. Just a semester or two long. Then go separate ways in life and such. I only saw him because we lived in the same building. 

And i only see TV sports guy because of sporting events. 

Sad reality.

Fluke

I survived. I stayed sober for freaking sakes. Then again i walked home because my roommates shacked at their respective boys places. whatever. which also means that i texted TV sports guy. so he now has my number... so yeah probably shouldn't have done that. I ran into the running dirk, and witnessed a water fight at sunvilla and went to sleep in the basement watching sportscenter. Whooo! Im wild.

People and the smallest things are annoying me. Indecisiveness is seriously one of my pet peeves. Either you want to eat or you want to go without. You want to go to dinner with some graduating seniors or you want to hang with the boy toy. its that simple. And yes i am peeved that i got ditched again. it sucks being reminded that i only have a teddy bear and a bunk bed to come back to. It kinda hurts when you have to know that you seem undateable.

Leo horoscope for today: you keep visiting a place in your imagination where the future and the past mingle. you may know more about what you said yesterday and what you will look like next year than you do about the present.

Interesting how close those hit.

this might be the end

I just hope i survive. Apparently i caused a tizzy when i came back to the house drunk. Whatever. I am 21. I can legally do it in public. Woop-dee-doo. I just want to sleep. the 8-game home stand finally caught up with me. And i kinda want to possibly have the chance to see sports TV guy. 

Bruised knees, rain in sheets, and 2500 words

I fell again yesterday at the library. I slipped on a puddle of water and skinned my knee through my sweat pants. Today i have a gnarly bruise to match the others on my other knee. I called my mom and told her that i fell again, and she asked me if i was drunk. The sad thing is that every time i fall i am sober. Since last Sunday, i have fallen three times. that's once every three days. I am a certifiable klutz. I have gotten used to it. It comes in waves. Sara recommended that i wear shoes that i won't fall in. The depressing thing is that i have fallen, tripped or somehow bruised myself in every pair of shoes that i own. It would be easy to blame the inanimate object that i put on my feet, but it is all me. God help me.

The rain has died down somewhat, but still coming down, as it is predicted to do so all day. 100% chance of rain. Baseball is probably rained out against MU, yet again this year. 

I was sitting on a bench at walnut and JQH parkway and saw some family friends last night. I also got waved at by an older gentleman i couldn't recognize until he came back around. It was my boss from sports info. He asked me if i still had an office key. Eye roll. It seemed so random.

This also gave me an idea: Top 10 reasons you know you are a true Springfieldian. I don't know if i want to be proud of it.

Klutz and "out of my shell"

I am a klutz. They had described me as quiet and now they are slowly getting to know me better. I was of course running thru the stadium because I forgot to give the visiting team their stats and on my way down the stairs my shoe fell off at the last one. Bam! I am on my knees in front of Dirk, about 20 fans on the other side of the fence, and the head usher guy. I just laughed at myself. I kinda just sat there on my knees thinking what else man, what else? Then again I was also hurrying to leave so i could have margaritas with Sara at Cheddars so...

I guess last night, at game seven of eight in this home stand, Mike officially declared me "out of my shell." Since it was 5th of may, we were handed sombreros to wear. I wore mine most of the game. But one of the many times i was coming up from the elevator, Mike and Josh were walking out of the home radio booth, and my hat slid to the side of my head. Mike just gives me a smirk and that they were just talking about me. Great. Josh tells him that I never shut up. Which is pretty true. Silence kills me. (LOL) I chuckle at the thought and I go on to tell them that Mary found a sticker in my hair that said Made In Mexico. Any way, Mike comes in later in the third inning. I'm talking to one of the various TV sports anchor guys and i still have the sombrero on. Apparently Mike made a Neal Diamond reference on the radio because of the Travs starting pitcher had the last name of Denham. I told him he should have done Den-ham.com joke but he looked at me clueless. The TV guy knew what i was talking about. Mike asked if i was on a sugar high. Josh agreed that I am usually like this in the press box. Mike said that the only person that I talk to in the office is myself. Well, generally that is the only person who listens and sometimes i don't even listen to myself. I have been slowly bonding with the other interns, but its hard when i am in the booth and they are on the concourse and i am there a whole lot longer than they are on game days. At the very end, top of the 9th when i leave to go run stats, a little boy who's buddies all had a sombrero, asked me for mine. All i wanted was a photo with the 'brero going "OLE!"

Petite and described as quiet?

I have always been a solid girl. I think it was more muscle, but i was never really the skinny petite that a lot of my friends were. I also hung around a lot of blonds, but that's here nor there. And i tend to find guys who are a skinny lean attractive. Either its a dominance thing or what I desire in myself. I haven't felt small, well more petite, (I always feel short. I work with men's basketball players.) until last night. I was just standing next to TV sports guy, who has to be over 6-3, and i felt petite. It overwhelmed me a bit. I had to look up at him to make some type of come back at him. I must mention that he was still wearing make-up he uses for on-air stuff. 

Maybe its the big dog in a little dog body mentality. But only a few of my guy friends have ever made me feel petite. They always towered over me, i hung out with athletes in high school, (Go figure, right?), and only one really made me feel like that. I think i have matured a bit in my female thought process. Which slightly scares me, maybe worry is more like it. 

Oh, so apparently I am the quiet one at the Cardinals and Sports Info. I mean I like what I am getting to do, even if doing the stats are going to make me uber nervous tonight, and so therefore i take it serious. Sara and Larrea laughed at the idea of me being quiet. Even TV sports guy denied the idea of me as being described as quiet. Duane and some of the other account executives kinda laughed at the description too, but they see my more laid back style. Mike is very high maintenance so therefore, I don't need to be and take with whatever is thrown my way a little more relaxed. I want so badly to work in an area that is dominated by men, whether at an university or a professional level. I have to be more laid back and they don't necessarily need to tiptoe around me.

bust

THis weekend was a bust. I got nothing done. And next week is going to be hell. I told the double no boy that i flirt with him when i talk to him on aim. And then there is stress of finals week coming up. I have three papers due within five days...and i only have started one. so I think im kinda fucked. We shall see how stuff goes. 

I really want the tattoo now. I almost got it done last night but i went to sleep instead. Im such a wuss. I think if, TV guy asks if Im going out on a friday or weekend, i half way convinced that i will take him up on it. WHy the hell not? I'm not all that fun drunk, but i doubt he will believe me. I am pretty boring... i just wanna sleep.

Two no's and tv guy

I got told no twice. By the same boy. And surprisingly i don't know how i feel about that. I am still talking to him. But I have to ask myself will i keep talking to him later? Summer is pretty long. I will get busy. I will graduate. I will move on...maybe to TV sports guy. That would sure be interesting. If I wasn't in a media relations job, i would go after him. But I like the fact that he keeps flirting with me. Its flattering, but i wonder if its all to get info, ya know? TV Guy gave me his business card for field hockey...He was complaining that he didn't know about football's spring scrimmage. I told him it was on the same release about the start of spring practice that came out the same day that Couzo met the team. So its very easy that it got pushed to the side. He didn't like that answer for some reason. 

Went back to sports information today. I couldn't find anything that he wanted me to find. And he got mad at me. But i think he was mad at himself because he doesn't remember where anything is and he is leaving. That's another thing. I get so many questions about him retiring, and who is going to replace him. I keep telling them that i don't know, since I'm at the cardinals a lot of the time, I am not up on the gossip. I go in to do field hockey. Right now i am OK with that....right?

mike vick

http://www.kansascity.com/170/story/577814.html

too good to pass up.

Sunny afternoon in the library

I am allowing myself to freak out now. Silently. I let myself do to little this weekend. I did get community service, looking like a dork, and i let myself have fun. Even made a little risk and asked him to come to the pbar with Sara and Christine and i. but he flaked. I flaked on him once but ... my excuse wasn't to watch a movie. 

What i am really needing to freak out about: getting Pardue's last article finished, the paper and presentation for dyers class and getting information for Cline's feature class. I get to go to Mansfield next Tuesday. I hope its a nice day that Tuesday. Crossing fingers. Its also a Cardinals weekend Thursday-Sunday. Then i haven't gone running with Casey like we had made plans to do so. I feel so bad. But i am so tired. Also add in internship stuff for the summer and fall. Eye roll on that. I just need to turn stuff in. And isn't that half of the battle?

The start of a Weekend

I think I already accomplished a lot of things today while I sit in the loudest in a long time I have heard the house. It seems that its always loud when I need to have a quiet place to be. Doesn't that suck?

Things I have accomplished (listing them makes me feel special):

went to class

got schedule for fall fixed w/o internships for summer or fall

scheduled an interview for CFP for Next Friday for fall internship

got taxes filed and will get a HUGE return 

dropped Ben off downtown

Went in to the Cardinals

Did everything that Mike asked and only stayed an hour

And here I sit at 3:10 giving myself a high five. I need to call at least five more people for three different projects. 

Big deep breath and I'm off.

Sleep? or not to Sleep?

Here's one for you. Throwing a hedgehog. http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/7334233/stm

0-4. I got nothing for you. Not in to great of a mood. kinda goes with the eh day like Monday. Very tempted not to go to any classes. and just sleep.

New links, 0-for-3, and 5 dollar bills

I added some links. The Ball Star one is for the Royals via the Star and also the Crime Scene one is too. But the crime scene one is pretty awesome. And you can never go wrong with the LA Times Kareem Abdul-Jabbar for a blogger either

Side note, actually i forgot what i was going to write because a friend of mine mixed up Charlton Heston, who is now deceased, for Hugh Hefner, Playboy millionaire. Awesomeness.

Series one down. 0-3. There is an actual running total of how many home games are left in the season. I think that there is 68 games including today's. Met a lot of the girlfriends of the players already. I think they feel safer about at least one female intern. I really don't know the other ones all to well. Some of the guys think I'm cool because I let a few of them run boxes to STL clubhouse when they were in town. 

The new five dollar bills are messing with my mind with the giant purple '5' on the back and with all the embedded 5s everywhere. Craziness. 

I need some of you in my life

Third game of the regular season is today. I just can't seem to relax. I blame the radar gun. Its all that stupid thing's fault. My feet hurt and my back does too.  

Some tidbits to leave you with:

"making the eighth grade boob list when you are only a seventh grader."

"I saturated those sections with stickers." 

OK good to go... i think. i have to be at the field in about 40 minutes. 

Healthy obsessions?

Why? Why do that to yourself? Why put someone that you are never going to meet on such a high pedestal that a "regular" girl will never be as good. So you end up lonely and with a online dating service page with no hits. I wonder if that it is healthy to do that? I bet this is also the reason that females (some males too) have bad body images about themselves. They are trying to be like what they see on TV because other people only like what they see on TV.

i am so awesome that i got other people hooked on the crazy links that i find. I should figure out how to post their links continuously on my blog. i have a few favorites now. what a small blog world.

I have the day off tomorrow. Kind of. I get to do homework instead of going into either the Cardinals, or Sports Information. Small victories. My mom made me sad the other day. she asked when she was going to see me next. she saw something and bought it for me. 

With a pic-nik table?

Here is a gem: http://www.firstcoastnews.com/news/strange/news-article.aspx?storyid=105778

(by way of the kansas city star website.)

My brain is slowing down and my body. I can't seem to keep up the constant speed in high gear, go figure. I blame the damn hot dogs. 

But that's all for now. My brain hurts.

Oh, the second guess of my drunk dialer was incorrect. So it was on of my brother's friends. Jerk face. eh oh well.

I Survived the Big Birds

First off, my feet hurt but not as bad as they did last night. I stood all of Friday's game with the big birds and half of Saturday's. But once the regular season starts on Thursday, i should have a seat. It was cool. I think i have been down playing it, but meeting the STL team wasn't that big of a deal for me. I just wanted to talk to Bryan Barton their Rule 5 guy from the Indians. Though i did make a few of the male interns day by "making" them take the box to the visiting clubhouse. Some of the other inters don't believe him, but he really didn't care. 

I have to figure out something to eat before the games. I cannot live off of hot dogs! that won't be good for my hands. Which, like on cue, are twice their size. So i might have to bring pb&j sandwiches for me. And i definitely just can't eat. That is definitely out of the picture. 

The drunk dialer... I asked someone if he was the caller but he's not. Though he said that he wished he was. Plus he doesn't have my number. I kinda wished he was tho. I might have an extra ticket to the Ben Folds concert on Wednesday, my brother might punk out on me. He's getting really busy with his senior show and all. I kinda wanna ask the one who wasn't the drunk dialer. I must get everything done for the next week and a half done. So that is one less thing to worry about. 

Wish me luck, guys!

Day 1

I don't know what to expect quite yet. And today hasn't started off well. Car problems. its easier to state it that way. Something with the tires possibly not staying on the car while driving. so yeah.... it was needed to be fixed. then there was the two twits that were at starbucks this morning. They didn't make my drink the right size so i got two for the size of a large. It seemed like they knew that i would need the caffeine to keep up with my boss today at the game. I am just afraid that i will drop once the game starts. My media guide came in, but i felt i could have done a better job on it. I feel like i let them down. Maybe its a newbie thing to feel like that but I let time get the best of me again. DAMN TIME! eh. the yearbook should be in sometime today. that will be neat. 

Oh and i'm at the library while i wait for my parents to bring my car to me. I just need to find a place that is close to campus and the cardinals and to a gas station. Everything included except electric... and ideas?

Oh and I got a drunk dial from someone last night. I think i have an idea who it is. It was sweet how they said that they thought i was pretty. But i half wonder if one of my brother's friends did it to get at him. Since i don't recognize the phone number.

Spring Break and i am at the library... fun.

I wonder at what age Americans get it into their heads that they don't need to take advantage of vacations. Like college's spring break. it would be very interesting to read. Also does it depend on what school the person goes to? Like do Ivy league schools have to kick kids out of the library? Do community colleges have to heavily advertise that the facilities are open?

My darn dog kept me up last night, because he had an episode at like 3 a.m. Those are very scary. They come every two months. Memo to self: call the vet. he needs his nails trimmed to.

I think I might give this address out to a few people so they know what is going on with me. I think i am going to become very busy towards the end of this week and then the rest of the summer and fall.

 I hope it is all worth it.

Infatuation

I wanted to get this down so i wouldn't forget it, though i doubt i ever will. To Cheddars, baseball and being 21. I am now a fan of the northern colorado baseball team and their horribly long road trip. Maybe they will win a few games as they trek across the midwest. It was so awesome talking to the catcher. he was interested in my job and what i want to do in baseball, because he wants to do that to. He kept asking questions but then our table was ready. It was fun while it lasted.

Just Gave Her a Pat on the Head...

This one was too cute to forget about later.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/asia-pacific/7291501.stm

And I Didn't think...

I found one today. Just a few seconds ago, too!

Enjoy: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/middle_east/4444839.stm

Time is fleeting...

Time is fleeting...

My horoscope said that I might have a better relationships this week including love relationships. So what in the hell does that mean? 

Time is escaping me.  There is so many things that I need to get done. maybe not enough time to get everything done...

No humorous articles links today. :-)

A snowy monday

How lovely the Missouri weather is. It tops the charts for sure.  It was such a nice weekend sunny with few clouds on Saturday, and though Sunday turned a bit cloudy it was a very pleasant day. And now its snowing right. It is so ridiculous!

Go Bears! Let's win Thursday!

A funny (yet, sad) story: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/7275177.stm

Funny news stories

I again ditto my point from the other day. Boys are slow on the up take. Just because i didn't wave when he left...  and then he gets snippy with me!

On a lighter note, I try my hardest to find stupid people getting caught being stupid. It brings a smile to my face when I get to read about these stupid people. I hope you like it too! 

My most recent find from BCC.com: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/wear/5138444.stm

Sleep

Friday was a blast from the past. I saw way too many people that i went to high school. it was scary. crazy. i don't know how i feel about that... being nastalgic and gooey inside. Not cool at all. 

Other than that...boys are very slow on the up take. That's all for now.

Time management skills out the window

i seem not to have any time management skills any more. gone are the days that i got everything completed and got to sleep in and get a healthy amount of sleep. where the heck did they go? I guess it didn't help that i tried to do three things at once way into the wee hours of the night and then got back up a few hours later. eh...

i am now waiting for a decent hour to call my next s0urce, 8 a.m. she's a banker that's what she gets for giving me her cell phone! um...i hope i just have enough for four pages. good gravy if i don't...it won't be pretty.

wish (pray) for my luck!

I forgot i had this

Wow...i forgot that i had this. maybe its a good thing that i found this. A lot has happened and is going to happen very soon.

Busy busy busy.

I think i will keep up with this. I have a feeling that this can lead to a good thing for new ideas for my journalism classes.

If people actually look at this, have any ideas that you might want explained better?