so i don't really know what i should do... about really anything. a particular boy, life after school, life in the present... anything.
i had convinced myself i was just gonna be friends with this boy... now he just confuses me. it seems every time that i talk to him i find something else that upsets me about what he does or says. I'm not sure but i doubt that is a good thing. I know i am not perfect either, far from it, but be honest or at least stick to what you say. But one good part about our weird ass friendship was that only one part of my world knew who he was and now my worlds are mixing. I have tried very hard to keep them all separate... and i don't know if i like it. I have worked pretty damn hard to keep it all juggled correctly... and balls are falling.